Thanks Time

 

"Honestly. Sometimes doing so is a necessity. Maybe this is a good time for me to do it ".

It is said that the opening is not very cool to listen to that beautiful twilight disappears from the sky red.
We both just silently stared wide expanse of sea indefinitely, hoping that time stops this painful conversation did not happen. However Adjie make my reverie interrupted.

"Honesty is what? Do not tell me you were actually an angel from heaven, and now you have to go back to heaven and left me here. Well, I'm so sad dong there will not argue it spele friends again. "

Typical words, words are sweet and always a funny expression on his face calm and adults were able to put me to sleep for her sincere smile. He, Adjie Saputra. People who are very jail I've ever met, he was rarely seriously when spoken to. I sometimes overwhelmed serve acting funny and mischievous it. He made this face always smiling, he always makes my heart calm, and he who made me aware of this sense is present for him. Adjie figure a good friend and also doubles as a brother even driver ... hahaha. Depending on needs, Adjie could always be anything for me.

"Not. That's not what I want to say Ji. But, I would say if in fact I had not showered. Satisfied? !!! "

"See, wrote of earlier pas pantes I pick you up here rather not smell bad anyway. But thankfully you have to be honest to me. Makasi yes, I'm not so lost angel I deh. "

"Adjie ... When the hell can you seriously if talking to me?"
"Wait until you can ngalahin high high I used to. Can you? Well-earned ah can not lah .. definitely yes. Since when its Faya Adjie can be high. "

Faya Anastasia. That's the name I had. Yes I was lacking in terms of body size especially if comparable with his size Adjie was tall and thin.

"I've bought the drug improvement body anyway. I'll just wait kalahin your height. "
"Oh, yes? Effective cure that? "
"Impervious lah. You and I'll just wait for the high kalahin you. "
"Weve already drank how many times?"
"Erm ... new semalem hell."
"Geez Faya .. always wrote it. If you want it sports high, not use drugs so. Then if you overdose how? Continue the purchasing emang where? Certainly in the online shop you see-saw yesterday, right? It is not a guarantee of health Fay. Ah just weird. "

It is one of the things that make me aware when this sense is present, attention. Adjie if diikutin search event most considerate guy world, I assure you he will win. Adult attitude and how to treat someone who called the woman not diraguin again. Adjie really appreciate and cherish women around him. Ever since he left his father 10 years ago, Adjie was only staying with her mother, so she always keep and cherish the only woman he had today.

"Yes captious, ah."
"That was the way he wanted to be honest, you want to talk seriousness it?"
"Yes, seriously."
"Duhduhduh .. his Faya Adjie pout. Come one, smile. "
"No ah, because I'm lazy. Dibecandain mulu deh. "

Kriiinnggg ... Kringgg ...

"Wait a minute yes Fay, I pick up the phone first."
“He’em.”

Without asking who is calling him to Adjie, I know enough from anyone. Yes Who else if not of Dila, girlfriend Adjie. Yes, Adjie already had a boyfriend. It also makes me want to lose consciousness when finished translating taste it. Adjie very fond of Dila. Even back when they had split up, Adjie patiently waiting Dila Dila and fight to get back with him. Dila always have the opportunity to have a full Adjie while I, I'll never be able to get a chance to feel bagamaimana feels loved with such enormous.

"Daaarrr !!! The vacant disamber Gledek new flavors. "
"What the hell, Ji. Elementary school children really know. "
"Ih, very cynical."
"Biarin deh. Eh .. it down why? Ngalahin saltiness of sea water it deh. "
"Ih say-say salty weve ever nyicipin face me?"
"Advances you wrote it diliat emang already salty, Adjie. Deh already ngalihin need not waffle, Dila why again? "
"Yee .. how do you know which nelpon it Dila? Emm eavesdrop definitely yes? Ngakuu deh. "
"Adjie, how long did I already know you? Without me eavesdrop, I already know it must have a call from your dear girlfriend Dila it. "
"Emm iya iya deh Faya seer is again jealous."
"Ih who is to be psychic? and who also are more jealous. "
"If angry mean jealous."
"Ji ... you do not want the story again anything at me?"

Adjie can only be silent. Once again turned his face away to avoid eye contact with me. See the sea and the sky is getting dark in the afternoon. I and Adjie always happy to spend a lot of time just to sit looking at the twilight disappeared from the horizon and hear the pounding waves a little bit about our feet.
Adjie can always hide the story, but he'll never be able to hide keresahannya are always easily visible in the calm face. Therefore I can always tell if Adjie was sad and he always calls me as "fortune teller".

"Adjie ..."
"I'm not okay to Fay."
"Ji .. I'm always without you this story about it, happy and sad. It seemed not fair if you're not the same story I've ever wanted. What kind of friend I is not ever get there when her sad though just be a listener. "
"You're talking hell, Fay. You are now on the side of me. That means you're there for me, when I'm sad you're always there. "
"But you do not say why you're sad. You do not want to tell us that to me. "
"Fay, you always know when I feel sad. I believe without me stories you would know why. You are telling the fortune teller. "
"But forecasters also a human right? You may have one ngeramal and definitely need an explanation as well. "
"I'm sure you do not ever wrong predictor Fay. You are always right. Fay, I want to sleep and do not taste wake up deh. "
"You say what is Ji. Not funny tau. "
"I like people are buried, Fay."
"You go to the tomb where the heck? I dig here. "
"Fay, had not you think you ngerasain ignored by chance? In vain it seems to have a chance but not in accordance with expectations. Sometimes life is not fair huh? "
"It is not life's not fair, but we as the live which can not be fair with our lives. We are deciding what our life would be like even though the director has been planned. You are making yourself treated unfairly by life. "

Adjie actually true, without it the story I always know what is the reason his calm face that could change instantly. I always understand him. I did not take long to figure it out in full. He'll just be sad when the pain with people he loved, precisely so he loves.

“Fay.”
Adjie suddenly looked away and stared at me. His eyes are really talking deep, very deep. He looked at me meaningfully as if asking for an answer immediately.
"Yes ..."

Adjie eyes not as usual, as there is a secret and questions to be conveyed through the eye. But what? In fact, I am now asking. What is the meaning of that look Ji? Explain immediately.

Reddish color of the sky had completely gone, replaced with a small bright dots that start popping add silence tonight. The air gets colder, go to the bone and skin covered with little meat this. It is also getting cold gaze felt in the heart. Adjie still silent and kept looking at me. Oblivious to all around it like a professional swimmer who continues to explore any point in my eyes.

"Faya honestly do not want to talk anymore?"
"I was already to be honest you, I have a shower."
"I know, it's actually not going to say that Faya. Now I do not need to wait for high Faya could create serious first because I knew it was going really old occurrence. Hehe .. Faya was going to be honest what to Adjie? already ready for ya. "

Face it again quietly said that. It was the most serious of words ever Samantha say, although I still remain hanged. They became rebellious collect answers quickly.

"Faya afraid."
"Fay, I'm not going to turn into a forest like the same kinds of thin meat you that."
"Adjie if still ngolok me, I would not want to say."
"Well really does elementary school children. Deh yes yes. "
"Okay, I'm honest now. Perhaps already the right time. "

Adjie slightest wajahya not turn off my face.

"I like you. I love the way you laugh, I love the way you smile, I love the way you jailin and godain me. The longer the others come. I love you. I love the calm face you, I love you with a worried face, I love with all the attention and all the way you treat me special. The farther that I fear finally appeared. Adjie Faya same apologize, but I'm in love with you. I love you without any reason. "

My God, what I just said? I just jump off a steep cliff. Faya, what have you done? What you have just expressed his own words of love to your friend and to a man who already has a boyfriend?
Waves take me, take me to drift into the middle lautmu now.

"Since when Fay?"
"I do not know. I myself do not know that feeling. Forgive me. "
"Sorry for what?"
"Because it loves you."
"There's been no word of apology for the love, Fay. What flavor is already there before I decided to go back to Dila? "
"It was long before that."
"Then why are you silent?"
"I've learned what a word means and I decided enough was enough just to be a friend and a person who is always there at your side without going through the special relationship".

Answer me make Adjie looked away. Back at the stretch of sea that stretches endless as to what you have in mind the current aji, endless.

"Fay, try to explain what I mean you've had enough? Not if we love someone we have to fight? as I fight for Dila? "
"Samantha, you then fight for Dila, then what should I defend someone who did not fight for me but to fight for someone not I?"
"I increasingly do not understand what you're talking about Fay."
"Adjie, sometimes more beautiful to just guess and feel how it feels to be loved and be loved someone like you. I've decided to just guess not enough to have because I was afraid disappointed if in the end you did not choose me, and all the special fantasies I had about us disappear. In many instances much more pleasant memory of something that happened but we did not deserve to make it happen, even though we could easily make it happen. "

Adjie back just stopped trying to interpret all the words that I spend.
He just stared blankly. I'm confused, why the sudden Adjie as if hope I prevent conjunction with Dila back? What really happened?

"If you dikasi with a real opportunity to feel cherished and loved by me, what do you want?"
"I do not want Ji."

I responded with a definite answer to this. Because I believe this answer is most true for today and tomorrow. However, this answer makes Adjie wonder.

"Loh, you're actually in love with you what does not Fay? You making fun of me? "
"Adjie, you're not a monopoly can I flickey and if lucky can a chance of your card. I told you, I've had enough with everything and I do not make me the opportunity to feel cherished and loved you to be real. I was quite expecting it and remember him with special. "
"What you do not feel pain the same Dila see me this time?"
"Only the statue did not feel that Ji. But I learned one thing, Removing go something or someone that is painful, but know to survive denganya may be many times more painful. "

I actually had to cry to say everything. For a long time I watched togetherness Adjie with Dila, all this time I can only stare without having, and all this time I feel pain itself is trying to reconcile and recalled Adjie be the most beautiful and now I opened old wounds back.

"I also learned one thing Ji, I learned to let go of the heart becomes calm and then I learned to let go and pray better it coming."
"So now you expect better than me. That means you do not really love me Fay. "
"Sometimes she was better with people who love him than with the people he cares about."
"But I also love you Faya, even ... even I was also in love with you."
BYUUURRR!!!

Out of nowhere the sky was clear thousands of stars at once sends rain on that night and on the beach. I froze listening to the statement just said Adjie. What he had just said? He loves me, too? No- not possible. So far, he does not love Dila? I even do not understand.

"You mean what Ji? Dila then? "
"Since the departure of Dila and I started to get to know you more, I hope you Dila substitute for I Fay. I'm comfortable when at you. I always expect a stop there and let me be with you. You seemed to dig where I bury myself along with all the memories I and Dila. But over time you bury me back there before I could get up and stand in front of you. Seeing that I was resigned to Fay, I was silent, and finally decided to call Dila to dig. Had I know you're still able to dig it, I will happily defend you Fay. "
"You lack patience to wait I Ji. Because you have in your mind when it's just Dila is capable of, not me. Now everything has happened. You have chosen Dila and I've decided to be enough. "
"But Fay, not that easy".
"Ji .. time was always so kind. Leave it all the time. "

Rain and the beach was a witness when the decision was pronounced it was a sign that choice has been made and should be conducted. We are deciding on whether or not this would be fair to us. And this time I feel life is unfair because it gives me time to make a decision to disclose all honesty about feelings. Now I take it off more sincere and more convinced enough with him to decide.
Thanks for always being kind of time.

Short Story Essay: Resti Annisa Anatasya
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